Is this life worth living?

tamara

I often ask myself,
Is this life worth living? 
Will this pain ever stop? 
Am I ever going to wake up?

I feel like I'm frozen still,
Suffocating,
Waiting..
Waiting to be set free.

This pain I feel is excruciating!
My heart has been shattered, 
My stomach has turned inside out,
And my body is forever cold. 

I want to reflect my pain,
Needing to see the blood for it to be real. 
My body slowly bleeding dry,
Now that I've cut.

I have cut my wrists,
I have sliced my thighs,
I have carved this blade into my body,
Now to feel myself bleed.

Bleeding to know your pain was real,
Bleeding to feel the release of my pain,
Bleeding to end this life of suffocation,
bleeding....

I'm going to leave now,
Leave this painful life I've led.

No more pain,
No more suffocation,
No more sorrow,
Just no more.