He's not my purpose

Nick Vixon

Thinking back on my life
I always wonder if it was right
My childhood was a perfect dream
But as I got older
I saw so many scary things
I found the horrors waiting
Waiting for me

They knew I was coming
So they just sat waiting
I never thought life would be so cruel
But as you get older you eventually have to 
jump into the deep end of the pool
But at that moment in my mind I couldn't yet swim

I use to believe
Believe in him
But at a very young age I soon realized that 
he took more people away then help me
So many people I loved
Lost, Gone, Taken away
Why should I believe
If he was never going to help a poor little girl
Suffering in a world so cold

I was always thought to believe in that holy figure
But As I got older I realized it was 
nothing more than a waste of time
Why the hell should I put trust in someone 
who will only tear down my world

Though I will admit that at hard times 
I have a little bit of hope
And I will pray
But guess what
I wasted my breath
Everything always got worse
So I stopped
Looking for no more hurt
Not like I did before
But I took it as a sign
I wasn't meant to believe in him
That wasn't my purpose in life
But I soon found out what was and 
I still stick to it and never look back
Even if the world would become so cold and black.