What I want.

Alucard

I'm vain, selfish, reluctant, unmoving
I love that about me
and I love me
but there is another love
the love of reality

Death is truth
Darkness is benevolent, the beginning and end
The recognition of these bring about an interesting person
Ones that I love to watch and study
What I want then is someone like me

Someone who can understand me
feel my anger and divert it
someone who takes just as much joy in others misery
someone to keep me from falling into that pit
keep me from my greatest fear

You can't have it though
If you wanted it, you would have kept it
You left it, sabotaged it, unhinged your own heart
You don't want someone like you
You want me.