Who Am I?

sarah lough

What am i....
 Im a winner im a loser 
Im holy im a sinner 
No options im a chooser
 Im a lover im a abuser 
Im obdient im a follower
 Im a rebel im a leader
 Im diffrent or a loner 
Theres bad evil and satanic 
Theres good great and rightous
 Death to life 
Health taken by a knife
 Birth to murder
 But who am i
 Im a kid looking for answers while cutting all of her problems away a kid trying to get some cat while looking for a lover 
But who am i like no other 
No like any other 
I belive in peace but i dream for violence 
Im looking for myself but to lazy to find it 
My mind and heart are crooked but people never try to aline it
 I used to look for answers you have to make you own 
Im so afraid to to live in vein and die alone
 My happiness keeps me sober my deppression keepes me stoned
 But over all im a sinner