Existence

Cassandra(Crimson)Marshall

Who is Existence? What has this goddess done for us? Where did she originate form? What is the amazing story of her legend? To answer these questions we would have to travel back through the stardust before Space and Time. Before breathing and bleeding was even a thought. Or perhaps before thought was thought. We would have to travel back to the very beginning. To the birth of Existence.

This was when the universe was fresh and black. It looked like a blank piece of construction paper, well almost blank. It would have been empty, except for the tiny speckles of atoms and particles dancing around the blackness, glinting silver. These are known as the universe originals. Back then, they were the only movement in the universe. There had been quite a few of the originals, but out of them all, only two had a child. It seems that it was only possible for these two to have a child. The legend says that these two atoms were named Element and Continuance.

Element was an atom with a bright glow. Her glow shone brighter than any other atom in the universe. The reason she was so bright had been because her electrical charge had developed far greater than all the other originals. Nobody knew why, they just knew that the older she grew, the brighter her light developed. Because of this, all of the originals that were men wanted to share their charge with her. Unfortunately it seems, that none of them had the strength to handle her energy, except one.

This atom's name was Continuance. Like Element, Continuance was also special, but in a very different way. He had the weakest charge and dullest glow. In fact, his light was so dull that he barely even had a glint. None of the other atoms seemed to notice him. If they did, they didn't pay ant mind to him. He just floated alone, freely through the universe, without a care at all.

While he was floating through the universe, Continuance waltzed into the dominion where Element dwelled. As he danced through the dominion, he gracefully sailed passed Element. They didn't notice each other right away, but something made them turn around and gaze at one another. They both felt a force that seemed to be pulling them closer together. As they got closer, something was happening to their charges. Continuance's charge was getting stronger, while Element's was getting weaker. It seemed that somehow their energy began to form together. The closer they got, the more they absorbed each others' charge, until just before they touched their charge and glow was equal. When they touched, their energy combined and exploded.

This explosion spread throughout the universe, covering the emptiness with an electrical glow. It lit up everything in the nothingness. All the originals were astonished when they saw this making them stop in their paths and look in the direction where the light was coming from. The glow started to calm and retracted from all the emptiness it was spread across. When the rest of the light died down, a female child remained amongst the debris, taking the place of her recently deceased parents.

Unmoved, the child stood there in her quiet beauty, closed eyes, no breath. All the atoms stared at her, wondering what she shall be named. They decided she should have the first letter of her mother's name which would be “E”. Then they decided that she should have the last 4 letters of her father's name but replacing the first of the four with the first letter in her name, creating “ence”. They wondered about the middle part of the child's name. The name “Eence” didn't seem to be right. They thought that maybe after the first letter in her name she should have the letter third to last in the alphabet “X”. Still, the name seemed to be missing something “Exence” didn't fit. They decided that since she was born of two she should have “is” meaning that she was born, they also decided to put in the last letter of her mother's name “T”. This was the perfect name and so it is told that the child was named Existence.

When her name was complete, Existence opened her eyes and took a deep breath in. She looked around the universe, seeing that it was fresh she breathed out. When she exhaled, Space was created. Every breath she took after that expanded Space. This made it forever changing, and although he was forever changing, Space seemed to be empty and bare, containing nothing but Existence and the originals.

Existence saw this in Space and grew to feel very lonesome. Although Space was with her, she felt as if she was abandoned. Her parents had perished during her birth and it seemed as if the originals didn't want anything to do with her. Her feeling of desolation grew and grew until finally something new emerged out of it, Time. Time contained the seconds, minutes, hours, days, years, so on and so forth. It was apparent that Time gave Space something more than emptiness, but still it seemed he was composed of nothingness. Existence saw that he was still empty and bare, and that she still felt lonesome.

Seeing and feeling this, Existence reflected on how she could ameliorate these problems. She thought and thought until she thought of something that could make Space less bare. She took a piece of herself and filled the emptiness with stars, planets, galaxies, and dimensions. Existence saw her creation was made in her image and wanted to give her a name. She already had Space and Time. Using all of the names she was born of and that were born of her (including her own), she came up with the name Seraphicus. Existence also took Space, Time, and Seraphicus, and made them into one. Space was now full of beauty and resembled the looks of Existence. He was dark, like Existence's long hair, but he was also star-kissed, like the silver shimmer of Existence's skin. He was filled with vibrant colors, such as the violets of her eyes, the scarlet of her lips, the turquoise of her nails, and the gold of the highlights in her hair. He was so angelic, it appeased the eyes of Existence.

For two weeks she had been content with this, looking at Space and the new treasures he held. When those two weeks passed, she felt as if something was missing. She looked out at him with wonderment of what may be missing. All she saw was how perfect and quiet he was. Nothing seemed to be wrong with him, he just sat there in his quiet, pristine beauty. Still, she felt as if there was something missing. She grew angry at this wonderment and didn't know what to do about it. Her anger kept escalating to the point of her not being able to handle it anymore. To release the anger she was holding she screamed. Sound was born of this scream, pleasing Existence.

Although Sound had pleased her, Existence still felt a bit of sorrow. She looked out upon Space and still felt desolation. Existence didn't understand why, she had many things created from her, and Space was so beautiful and whole. She wasn't alone, she had Space, Time, Seraphicus, and Sound, whom sat with her everyday to make sure she wasn't alone. She pondered on why she felt this way and as Time passed she realized, it wasn't her creations that were empty. Existence realized that she was the one who was empty, empty of joy. Feeling hopeless, she wept, not knowing how to fill herself. As she wept her tears fell into Space and he kept them in one of his corners. She watched as her tears fell into the stars and planets. As she saw Space collecting her tears in one spot a theory came to her on how she could fill herself.

Existence took all the tears that Space had been collecting and she mixed it with the stardust and light of Seraphicus. Out of this mixture Soul was born. She took Soul and embraced him absorbing the essence of his light he was created from. When she did this, she felt joy course through her and it made her laugh. Once her laughter left her mouth it traveled across the universe and created Anima. After this humans were born, animals became living, and plants thrived. Anima was created by laughter derived from Soul, so every being obtained a piece of him and became souls whom lived and breathed.

Existence saw these souls and felt something within her taking over her entire being. This feeling was unknown and felt far greater than joy. This feeling that had filled her was warmth. As warmth filled her soul, the heart was created. When the heart beat for the first time, every soul gained a piece of it. They began to feel love, joy, anger, and sorrow. Now the universe was full, as Existence also was. Being filled with love and warmth, she felt joyous and content. She named her creations as her children. They grew into what we are now. Existence is our mother, she gave us everything we have in the universe, Space, Time, Seraphicus, Sound, Soul, Anima, and the heart. She is the creator of our ever expanding universe. Without our mother, that is what we would be, without. We would be nothing and empty. We would still be the universe at the beginning. Fresh and black. Like a blank piece of construction paper, almost blank. Empty, except for the tiny speckles of atoms and particles dancing around the blackness, glinting silver.